My mood now 

Funny thing is, I was disappointed that I won’t be watching the game on 24th cos I will be doing my finals. In fact, my prof’s team advanced to the next round of playoffs but mine got swept. Who knew the funny thing would be there won’t even be a game on 24th anymore. Oh no, it hurts. 

In fact when they kept scoring against us it already hurts. Down to the last minute I was almost in tears as I watched my team get bashed up so bad. We’ve worked so hard throughout the regular season but somehow when the playoffs start, everyone seemed exhausted and just not there. They played like crap, I’ll be honest. Not because they are untalented, but they seem low in motivation. Perhaps something happened among the team, whatever it is, I hope the summer ahead will solve it. Rest well, my Hawks. 

I cannot find words to express how sad I am. We got swept. Swept. SWEPT. But still, hats off (or should I say helmets) to Preds. I saw your passion and your urgency. You guys want the cup badly. My team was just not there. I can only imagine how delighted preds fans are right now. Everyone predicted Hawks in 6/7, who knew it’ll be Preds in 4? 

But that’s okay. I’ll suck it up and get back into finals mood. Super painful loss. Even more painful than last year’s elimination because at least you guys were playing hard. This year you guys were just absent. But thank you Crow, people kept blaming you but I think you did great. Our defensemen were absent but you held up. #50 and #33, you’ll always be my favourite goalies. 

So there there. We’ve always got next season. It’s okay. You’ll always be my Chicago Blackhawks. ❤️

Dear Hawks, 

If I study really hard today, could you guys try harder to win the game tomorrow? 

Can you try harder to proceed to round 2 of the playoffs? It’s important to me that you don’t get eliminated so early on in the game… 

I can’t spend my entire summer break with nothing to root for. I need a motivation to get out of bed early to watch your games. 

So please Hawks, please win for yourself and for me. 

Bestest regards,

Me

I waited 3 seasons for this moment

For the first time in my life, I watched a season finale before I watched the other episodes of that season. I couldn’t wait anymore! I just wanted to see this moment. YEAAAAHH one of the tv couples that I ship so much are back together. Stay together both of you, work out your differences like adults. I think we all knew both of you never stopped loving each other.

Now that I’ve watched this, I can finally focus on mugging for finals. OR CAN I?

“Hey, Miller.”

“Hey.”

Sayonara, Sammy

I think I might actually miss this semester. It was a weird one. It wasn’t particularly good but it wasn’t all that bad either. I faced some really low moments, but there were a few good memories too. Weird huh? 

I spent last night and the entire today binge watching New Girl. I don’t know why I did that, considering that finals are in two weeks’ time. But I swear if Nick and Jess never get back together before this show ends, I don’t know what is love anymore. Yeah yeah maybe they’re pretty different people, but the way they look at each other just says it all…. just some good acting right there yeah? I’m so tempted to read the spoilers for season 6 finale but I don’t want to ruin the moment…. but Gosh! 

In one episode, Schmidt was asking Winston what the hell was he wearing to work? Do people at the station not laugh at him? (He’s a cop). Winston replied that of course they do and his suggestion (or complaint) box is full all the time. People write mean insults to him. But there’s only one suggestion that he listens to— one that says things like, “Great job!” “Well done.” And that suggestion is from himself. No one else’s matters. He then walks away, and Schmidt commented, “Now that’s a Goosebumps Walkaway!” 

It was a good moment. I don’t paraphrase it well enough but moments like these are why I appreciate good tv shows. 

Day 7699 

I’m scared of the future. 

I did some gambling experiment during tutorial last week and the conclusion was that I’m a risk taker. I took a gamble when there’s a large gain and small loss, but also when there’s a small gain and large loss. Basically, I took a gamble at almost anything. My teacher then asked if the results of this experiment are accurate enough to imply I’m a risk taker in real life. I doubt so. My friend did the experiment after me and his risk taking was very low. Honestly I think he’s a bigger risk taker than me, because he’s in a relationship. An assumption on my part but what bigger risks in life can there be besides those that are offered by love? To be in a Long term commitment, tell me that’s not a huge leap of faith and huge risk to take! Oh the woes that love can bring…a risk that I dare not take. 

My teacher then pointed out how decisions in real life don’t come with probabilities. You don’t get to see which leads to the better outcome. That’s what makes it really tough. Does that mean we shouldn’t blame ourselves for making bad choices? Not like we will know the other choice would be better, right? Judgement and decision-making, what an interesting topic. 

This week is the second last week of school. For once, I think I would miss my classses. This sem was so stressful but oddly fun. Truly, strangely fun. I might miss it. 

But still, day 7699. 

I’m scared of the future. 

Happy birthday Kikwang ah~ it’s hard to believe when I first know you we were celebrating your 21st birthday. And now it’s your 28th birthday while I’m 21. Time is kind of scary when it flies by so quickly and unknowingly. 

Highlight managed to clinch a triple crown this week on 3 music shows. I’m so happy for them! Perhaps things are less scary when you have friends to go through it with you. Their bromance is honestly no joke. Stay together as long as you can, okay Highlight? 

Yesterday was not a very good day. The only highlight of my day was watching Kiki and Dongwoonie celebrating his birthday on V Live (see what I did there?). Then I spent the whole day just dazing. And also doing useless things like catching up with Modern Family and TBBT episodes. 

TBBT has changed so much ever since it first started. Everything is so different now and I don’t take change well. Sheldon is no longer Leonard’s roommate and he’s living in Penny’s apartment with Amy. While I understand the need for character development, I dislike the idea of Sheldon in Penny’s apartment. And Sheldon’s old room is now Raj’s room. Surprisingly Sheldon is taking this change better than me…he must’ve really love Amy! Sheldon and Leonard’s apartment had always been the apartment filled with geeky stuff…lightsabers, posters, and all your cool figurines and shit. But now they’ve removed so much of it! Penny’s apartment is so….normal. There’s no figurines and interesting things on display. The show wenr from full-on geekiness to a very toned down one. I truly miss the good old times whereby they were single and rocking the geek life… but character development. 

Anyway, here’s to hoping today won’t suck.