What a Saad day 

I will miss this line. *cries* 

Was happily playing my 3ds when I received a notification; Hammer & Panarin got traded away. I teared up a little when I saw the news. Hammer, what can I say? He’s a great d man, always there when needed. Even when the others weren’t playing well, he never failed to show up. I never imagine that he will leave the Hawks so quickly. I just thought that he will always be there, ya know? I do not think it’s a good idea to trade him at ALL. To coyotes too! Please let us get him back. 

And Panarin, our adorable breadman. When Saad got traded, I was so upset. I knew Saad didn’t want to be traded. Then you entered our team with Anisimov. After watching you play alongside Kaner and Ani, I realised I could make do with this trade. You were very cute too, with your broken English and your funny attempts at trying to communicate with the rest. 72-15-88 line were dominating. I enjoyed watching you guys play. Panarin, you’re truly that rookie who worked your ass off to be where you are today. I sincerely wish you all the best with the Jackets, but I hope that you’ll be traded back to Hawks soon 😢 

Nevertheless, I’m so glad Saad’s back. #KNEELBEFORESAAD 

I’m still saad though. I pretty much lost a lot of my fav players this time— Scotty, Hammer and Breadman….. zz. 


Bought FE Fates ysd from a guy, but I guess he didn’t really take good care of his games. The box art was torn. I didn’t really see it until later on and my heart sank a little. It really matters to me that the box must be in good condition because I like to keep them. But still, I got them for a really cheap price ^^ 

Lots of thoughts ran through my head. Should I sell it then buy another one? Should I ignore it? Yet when I looked at the game, I knew I couldn’t just ignore or sell it. I can only imagine how much it must’ve gone through to be so holey 😂  so I decided to try my best to “restore” it. 

How it looks like after restoration: pretty good huh? You can barely see the holes! You can’t even tell where it has been torn. I’ve never felt so accomplished. 


Have you ever met someone, interact with them and wonder how the heck did you spend years of your life not knowing them? It’s as if they showed you a whole new world. 

That’s how I felt when I started playing Fire Emblem. I started with Awakening and was immediately hooked. The last time I felt this alive was when Pokémon Moon came out. I can’t believe it took me so long to jump onboard the FE ship! I’m in love!!!!!!!!! I recalled when I first bought my 3ds, the guy asked if I wanted the Fire Emblem Fates Special edition 3ds, and I was like Nahhhhhh. Now I’m kinda regretting it hahaha. @__@ 

What I love about that game is that the art style, story plot, fantasy elements are amazing. And the OSTs? Surreal! The characters are very lovable and their fight scenes are hella intriguing. Oh boy, I just love it so much. I’ve been surviving on little amounts of sleep since I started playing. That’s when I know it’s a good game. There’s not a lot of things during the hols that can make me jump out of bed early in the morning (by early I mean noon). I’m a hardcore bed-lazer. But for the past few days I really can’t stop thinking about the game and it became a motivation to get out of bed. Wheee! 

But one thing I noticed about such games is that they tend to show the characters being self-sacrificial in the suicidal way. Wait…is it considered suicidal? I Guess so. For instance, to save the world, A decided that the best way is to kill/sacrifice himself so that he can save the rest. I think little kids may get the wrong idea hehe. 

Today I stared at my 3ds and I felt my heart beat so fast. I feel incredibly joyful every time I gaze at that wonderful piece of technology 😉 thank you Nintendo. You’re the best seriously. And I want a Ps4 so baaaaaaaaaad so many good games ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. But patience, young kiyodu. Good things come to those who wait and in this case— good price. May the price of Ps4 drop more so that I can afford it v(^o^)v

说了你也不明白 解释了你也不相信

We were always short on time.

We wake up earlier than anyone and we sleep later, but we never had enough time.

We lived harder than anyone but our resumes don’t show a thing. 

They seem to be everything of our history. 

Fight for My Way, 2017 

…things you wouldn’t understand because you live in a different world from the rest of us. People who think that money gives them power to abuse the rights of others. 

We don’t need this job. We merely wish to live our dreams. We don’t even need to live it anymore; we just want to be a little closer to it. 

Keep fighting on. 

Early morning/late night thoughts 

I really want to see Chicago Blackhawks hoist the Stanley cup again. I want it to happen with the team of cores we have now. Because soon the team roster will change into something entirely different and things won’t be the same anymore… I receive news that Kruger and TVR might be traded to the new Las Vegas team and my heart died a little. Kruger, the amazing guy who didn’t mind a smaller salary just so he can stay with Hawks. And TVR, the dude who never fail to put on a bright smile on his face no matter the outcome of the game. And there’s the list of players who might also leave: Hammer, Breadman, Arti, Seabsy, etc. I’ve become so used to having them around, especially hammer and Seabs. Sometimes I think NHL really isn’t for me— someone who doesn’t take changes well. Haha. Or I could view this as a form of practice to teach me how to get used to changes. It’s just that every time i countdown to the remaining years Crow has with the Hawks and I dread it so much. I do hope I have a chance to watch a Hawks game before Crow leaves (please don’t leave)… 

Oh please, Hockey gods, could you let 2018 be Hawks’ year? I mean seriously guys, let’s work harder and bring our fiery drive back. People are saying you guys suck but I think those people are mean and crazy. We don’t suck, we’re just a little lost. Let’s go Blackhawks, let’s go. 

Also, Scott Darling’s Story. I’d like to keep this link here forever on my little writing space. I love my goalies so much. Scott, some day I’ll find a way to get your autograph and a picture and also tell you how courageous you are for pulling yourself back up. 🙂