I don’t usually rant about people. Honest to god, if you offend me once or twice or sometimes thrice, I still keep it to myself. Maybe I’ll dwell over it for a while, but I don’t complain too much. Because I understand. That in this world, in certain situations, some circumstances may bring out the best in us— or the worst. We are humans with personalities and individual thoughts and beliefs. Totally normal. Bits and pieces of the happenings of our life shape us into the people we are now. If I can’t understand that, I’ll be a disgrace to my major.
But here’s another thing, sometimes no matter how hard I try, some people really do pisses me off. Time and time again, I find myself being trampled on by a more “dominant” being, perhaps by status or simply an imaginary rank. Yeah well, we will always have someone of a higher rank than us. Totally fine but Gosh, how can some of them be so unreasonable? In this past week, I ranted to 5 people about you. What a record! “ 你不尊重我，我尊重你。你还不尊重我，我还尊重你。你再不尊重我，我就废了你！”
When such events occur, I constantly have thoughts of wishing that I could be mean enough so that people would stop stepping all over me. I wish I was intimidating. I wish I can be rude. I kept thinking that way but now, at freaking 5:14 am, I hate that I have to think that way. You should wish that you can be kinder and more understanding towards others. You should wish that you can be more polite and friendly. Why the heck am I wishing to be like you, just so that I won’t be “bullied” by you? You’re terribly mean and I never ever want to be like you!
So may this world always be filled with more kind people than nasty ones. May this world be filled with more understanding souls rather than those who criticise others for everything they’ve done. Oh good lord. May my world be rid of you.
But still…. thank you for giving me many wonderful friends who tolerated listening to my rants. Phew.
To the most precious one, my 3ds. It’s been one valuable year with you. Oh you’ve helped me through so much shit. Finally playing Ocarina of time last night. The scene whereby Zelda and Link first meet really make me smile. Beautiful pair. Look at the beautiful sky. Hyrule field and Lon Lon Ranch.
If I take away school…
If I take away work…
Do you still have something to wake up for each day?
Went to watch the very first movie of the year. Yeah, I don’t always watch movies in cinemas because…pocket $ problems. If I watch a movie in a cinema out of my own intention, it must be a really special movie *blushes*. It must be even more special if the very tired me actually drag myself to the cinema at night just to watch the movie.
I watched Fabricated City… I waited for so long for it to reach Singapore…. omgosh.,,,,,.. alright I admit it was more intense and bloody than I expected. I watched my poor Chang Wook getting beaten up over and over again, and boy! Do I just want to help him! It was a pretty good movie I must say. And yes I’m biased. Even if it’s a shitty movie, which it’s not, I will still say it’s brilliant. Because I know he put in so much effort in filming action movies… and he looks so…… 😍 but I hope you don’t do action movies anymore if it gives you body aches. HEALTH IS WEALTH. I think I forgot to blink throughout the movie and I stared really intensely and…..my right eye watered so much. My vision became blurred. Yes I was admiring the epitome of beauty on the movie screen until I forgot to blink.
I sound like a crazy fangirl which I am. But okay it was a great movie. Anything with hackers and action are my go-to movies. Gosh, I want to be a hacker so badly. Okay. I think I just failed. I don’t think hackers will announce they want to be hackers…..online somemore. I don’t know how to erase my digital footprint. I don’t even know how to access the Dark Web. My old laptop was override by Trojan horses. I think the closest I came to feeling like a hacker was when I smug PQ pieces out in Maple. Those good old days when I was actually… erm useful. But DAMN!!!!!! Love the movie, love Ji Chang Wook even more ❤️🙆🏻
I don’t think you know true panic until you’ve tried preparing for an effing core in a few hours.
If you ask me why am I doing last minute work again?
I don’t know. I don’t know.