Another new day 

Today’s Momentum looks so stunning it almost seem fake. I do love lighthouses! “Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.” What a great reminder. Mugging for midterms when your own body is against you is honestly no joke. But give up I must not! 

May the Force be with me because I kinda need it… 🙂 

I may have just eaten the best tasting cheese tart I ever came across in my 21 years of existence. My dad brought these back from a bakery in Chengdu. I’m not kidding. Best tasting cheese tart EVER. Hopefully I’ll have a lucky week ahead upon eating this tart! 😜

Update @ 7:02PM:

Was feeling pretty lousy because I’m sick and all… While sitting at my table, I suddenly had an urge to look out of the window. 

So I did. 

It was a FULL rainbow! This picture doesn’t do it justice. It was beautiful. Holy shit! Tears actually came to my eyes. The last time I saw a rainbow was in Jan 2013…strangely I was also having a bad day that day. Anyway, I immediately yelled at my whole family and burst into their rooms: “GOT RAINBOW GOT RAINBOW!!!” What a glorious sight! Elon Musk and his Mars plan is great, but what can beat life on Mother Earth? 

While taking this pic, I realise how dirty my house’s windows are and how bad I am at taking panorama shots. 

Hang in there, kiyodu. I think things will be okay 🙂 


The little engine that could

Recess week is flying by crazily fast. Ketchup with my work I must. A flood of midterms and projects await me after this week. Pokemon Moon and my other games await me after all of it. GOOOOO KIYOOOOO~  

Loyal study buddy, Tay Chubb Chubb

Secretly competing with myself to see how long I can withstand having that barcode and number thing blocking my laptop screen. It has been 2 months 😛 I may have gotten used to it… Well well, I should get a screen protecter soon huh? 
Today’s probably the most unproductive day so far because I fell sick. I always fell ill during holidays or before exams, why! 😦 Well, they did say that falling sick is a sign that you should give your body a break….but they also said TIME WAITS FOR NO MAN! 

I finished an anime called ‘Another’ yesterday and it gave me the creeps! It’s a thriller/horror anime and definitely worth my time. There was another anime I watched called ‘Mayoiga’ but it wasn’t that thrilling. There’s also a manga I came across recently that’s pretty captivating but I’ll talk about that another time. #animeislife 

Do you know the story about “The Little Engine That Could?” Faced with a steep and giant hill, he kept saying, “I think I can… I think I can….” 

Finally reaching the top, he said happily, “I thought I could.” 

~SH OUT~ 🤘🏻

P.S. I just realise when I type in caps to make it seem like I’m shouting “SH OUT” and “SH OUT” does spells shout. 😏


It’s not that I hate my country or anything but…yes, I do not approve of the education system here at all. I think I am not the only one who sees that there is really something quite wrong with the way education is carried out. A recent talk with my roomie confirmed what I already suspected. We are doing it all wrong. It irks me to see kids giving themselves so much stress in order to have a good future ahead. It irks me because I have always been one of those kids. So what my roomie told me made me think a lot about the way I study.

I asked her for her honest opinions regarding our country’s education system. Oh, she’s actually studying in Netherlands. But anyway, what she said was HONESTLY, what we are learning is not super difficult or more difficult than what her school is learning. But for some reason, the students here are way more stressed out than the students in her school. She agreed she felt the competitiveness among SG students. Well okay backtracking a little here.

Basically she asked me how I did for the recent psych test we had and I told her “I got xx….it’s not very good.”

She was surprised and commented, “That’s not good?! I got the same as you. Is that a fail?” I told her no, it was not a fail but it was not good. Full marks was good and full marks was what a lot of people were getting. We were far from failing but damn, to me it was not a good grade because people around me got higher.

“But why is it not good?” I explained to her about the bell curve and apparently they don’t have it over there.

And then she said something that made me feel like crying. “In our country it doesn’t really matter what your grades are. As long as you can do what the job requires you to do, they don’t really care about your grades. And if you know your own work it should be good enough. I don’t understand why other people’s grades should cause your own grade to go up or down.”

There isn’t even “First class”, “Second class” or “Third class” honours in her school. Why do you still have to make Honours students feel that they are still not good enough? But you see, the reason I don’t complain thaaaaat much and pretty much just deal with it throughout my years of education is because I know Korea’s education system is even more insane. If you think ours is stressful, theirs is 100x worse.

I don’t really know what’s going on in schools right now, but I’ve wondered why Moral Education and Physical Education were the periods my form teacher immediately forgo every time we are behind time on other subjects. Indirectly, every kid start realising which subjects are the “important” ones. I vaguely recall how I used to enjoy going to school so much. I read my textbooks a lot of times and memorise every passage in my Eng and Chi textbooks. And WHAT IS STRESS??????

Yet somewhere along the way, I forgot how to enjoy learning. I can’t remember when it started but I recall the time when 4 problem sums transformed into 13 and damn, that’s when everything changes for me. My teacher arranged us according to our grades and paid extra attention to those who were doing well enough to score well for PSLE. I remember the mini kiyodu feeling damn pissed off about that arrangement. What happened to helping your peers? Since when did learning become “Leave no man behind, but if there is no other choice, just take those better ones along”? I know my teacher probably meant well…just kidding. I don’t see how is that even a good idea. I recall seeing my classmate raising up his hand for ages but was not attended to because the teacher was busy at the “smarter” table. Ok but this was so long ago so little kids back then didn’t know anything. I bet we didn’t even realise this was open discrimination. I remember feeling damn unhappy because this was not how I wanted learning to be. But no hate no hate. Pri school days were a tad crazy for me. Maybe this was just my dumb luck to experience such an event. Thankfully I graduated peacefully with a score I was pretty glad about, but “was not up to my potential”…. … ……..

I guess that’s where everything started. I stopped enjoying the process of learning something new because I subconsciously knew it’ll be a competition later on to see who understood better. Some people aren’t that great at doing exams, that’s all. I somehow have the luck to meet not-so-great teachers, but also the luck to meet one of the kindest and most patient teachers ever. My E Math teacher. I’ll be honest…I forgot her name lol. I think I sorta forgot her face too. The only thing I remember is how she helped me even though I pretty much gave up on myself. My never-ending battle with Math in school actually gave me a lot of fun memories 😛

I recall one incident…I think it was 2 digits day to O levels. I was still failing my E Math (actually A math too…but who fails at E MATH?!). So I took my paper, went to her and I…broke down. I told her I followed everything she said, but I still failed. I didn’t know what to do anymore. What she said next made me cried even harder.

“Si Han…don’t give up. We will look through what’s wrong, I will plan out a schedule and you just stay back after every lesson and do the work I give you, ok?”

And on the day of my paper, she yelled across the driveway, “Si Han, jia you!”

😥 That’s a real teacher right there.


I might have gone off topic but my bed is beckoning to me so….


Japan is cool

A new 2ds they released in Japan~ it’s pretty! In my favourite shade of purple too 🙂 I just thought it looks really cute but fortunately, my heart didn’t start beating fast and I was able to stay calm. It’s a good sign because it means I don’t want it that badly. 😌

Started watching this show called Saiki Kusuo no Sainan and it’s hilarious in my opinion. Each episode is really short so I unintentionally binge watch 40 episodes of it (-.-)” Anime is loveeeee anime is lifeeeee.