Night night, sleep tight. Don’t let the…

Hi there! I just had two crazy, ridiculous nights in a row. It’s the kind of night whereby you’re so bloody tired but you can’t sleep well, not because you don’t want to but……

RIDICULOUS REASONS!

An example of a crazy, ridiculous night I had long ago: I was extremely pooped, about to crash onto my hotel bed when I realised the entire bed was infested with GRASSHOPPERS. Not even kidding. It was the worst hotel I’ve even been to, I ended up sleeping on a chair. #ridiculousreasons

Anyway, before I talked about my ridiculous reason for no-sleep-tonight, quick info:

1) I’ll approach almost every dog I see that’s within my radius, stray or not.

2) I’m very lazy…

3) I have the most sensitive skin ever. Ever. (I can’t even let dogs lick me on my face or I might break out in hives, sadly.)

So for the past few days I’ve been visiting Jiu Zhai Gou in China, here’s a summary of the important parts:

Explored a mountain-> found snow-> made a snowpet-> called it 小白 & carried it in my hand for the rest of the journey descending the mountain-> hands frozen and numb thanks to 小白 but ignored -> 小白 eventually died-> Checked in some shitty hotel (but not as bad as the grasshopper one), but pretty shitty-> Pondered for a while whether hotel bed is clean-> too tired to care, *snores*-> played with a stray pup outside the hotel next morn-> *fast forward*-> played with another stray pup at some village->*fast forward*-> Flew back to Chengdu, lazy mode activated-> Kinda crawled into my bed without bathing…-> Showered-> Crawled into bed again-> Stayed in bed for nearly 2 days (I know I know, but I was being lazy & reading books so..)-> And that’s when it started.

In the middle of the night, I suddenly felt this crazy itch on my feet and hands. It’s the kind that makes you want to scream and furiously scrub at your skin. And yet it hurts too, like a burning sensation that swells. It was easily one of the worst itches I’ve ever encountered, but I didn’t think much of it. I managed to fell asleep amongst the pain and itchiness, thankfully.

The next morning, the feeling was still there. It was so terribly itchy I just sat there scratching for minutes. Maybe mosquitoes, I thought. I went out with my family and throughout the day, I kept scratching. It was getting extremely unbearable! Finally, I told my parents when we got back because I needed some medication. Unfortunately they didn’t have any, and were clueless to the cause too.

I started spamming lotion all over but the itch got worse. Now it was everywhere! I kept on scratching (I know I shouldn’t, but it was unbearable). Suddenly, red lumps began to form on my skin. All over my body, EVERYWHERE! My face, arms, legs, feet, hands, neck, waist. Lol I might show you a picture but that’ll be too gross. The itch and pain got so, so bad I thought I might go crazy. I’m actually still scratching while typing this 😛 Of course, it got worse.

My bro informed me it could be bed bug bites (Recall: suspicious hotel bed at shitty hotel, recall: Did not bathe and crawled into bed at Chengdu, recall: Stayed in chengdu bed for 2 days!). My dad suggested allergies. My mom was just agreeing to anything possible, really.

I kind of panicked at the thought of bed bugs because I really detest bugs! So I started googling bed bug bites, matched some of the symptoms but…. I thought of hives (recall: exposure to extreme cold aka 小白, extreme laziness & did not moisturize my skin at all throughout the trip) or flea bites (recall: stray dogs). Again, matched some symptoms but…

It is still crazy itchy as I’m typing. Hopefully no longer when you’re reading 😦 my conclusion tonight is inconclusive. I’m hoping it’s hives because they’re insect-irrelevant. That being said, I’ve been sitting on my chair for ages because I don’t dare to sleep on my bed. I do hope it ain’t fleas because I do love the stray pups! Sigh what a night!

By the time you finished reading this, you’d realize this post has no special meaning to it. I’m just ranting because I’m itching so bad! I guess the lesson learnt is Never ever lie in bed for two days straight, because that’s when all the problems started.

Rest assure that I’ll not be a lazy sloth for a long time and will definitely moisture myself more *weak smile*.

Charlie, you’re quite right

I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.

The Perks of being a Wallflower

A Human, a Peanut and a Tick

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Hi there! Today’s 10th May and I think I’m a living proof that things do get better with time. Exactly a year ago, 10th May was (one of the) worst days of my 18 years of existence. I remember thinking, “I’m never gonna pull through this…there’s no way I can get back on my feet.”

I felt the pillars supporting my world gave way, forever.

Oh but anyway hey! 10th May a year later, sometimes it still hurts but the hurt doesn’t control you anymore 🙂

Saturday mornings are spent at SOSD, walking a beloved Peanut. One of my greatest fears (just ask anyone who personally know me— anyone) is the fear of six-legged creatures. I don’t care if you’re small (ants), pretty (butterflies), useful (bees), “cute” (ladybugs), I’m scared. I don’t hate them but I’m scared.

So anyway while I was walking Peanut, I spotted a tick on her. Any brave soul would pick that tick off and kill it. But I’m not a brave soul… I told Peanut, “dude there’s a tick on you oh shucks.”
*tick continues crawling*
*Peanut watching me curiously*
“There’s a tick on you and it’s crawling omgosh those legs oh shoot……”
*tick stops crawling*
*tick is silently mocking me*
*Peanut paces back and forth*

Here’s what I wanted to do: Pretend I didn’t see the tick, because I’m petrified. Fear controls you in such an unimaginable way sometimes. There was no way I can pick that tick off with my bare hands.

But I realised something else was greater than my fear. This thought kept ringing in my head: Peanut’s gonna be in pain and it’s all because of you and your fear. I looked at Pea and she looked at me and I looked at her and said, “Screw it.” So I took an (object that shall not be named) and (insert the bravest sounding action word) the ticks. Two ticks, actually.

I sighed in relief. Peanut looked at me in shock/surprise/(Human, what are you doing????). It’s okay, Pea. Mission accomplished. Let’s just say the next time I encounter a tick, I’ll be using a pincer.

As you can see, I made homemade ice cream for my Mommy today. It was delicious! Thanks mom for being my mom. I always wished my mother would be someone who isn’t afraid of dogs. She comes up with ridiculous deals like, “If I visit dog cafe then you better visit insect cafe.” or “Make friends with the insects la! Then I make friends with dogs!” and “You can’t even take care of yourself, how to take care of your dog?”

But still, I wouldn’t trade her for any other mother in the world.

How to be Happy?

Today was a pretty shitty day. Oh yeah I know, I mentioned in my very first post that I’d only post positive stuff. But this IS positive stuff, no worries. That doesn’t mean today wasn’t a shitty day.

Because today was a rather shitty day, not the shittiest, but shitty enough. Long story (no actually I just don’t want to elaborate on the shitiness. Some shit should be kept to our own shitty selves). How do you spell shittiness/shitiness anyway? I had a rather bad day but at night, I came across this video.

If a person with a lifelong disease can learn to be happy in that short amount of time he had, why can’t I? But of course we all can. It’s just that sometimes we get so caught up with wanting more and more that we forgot what we already had. So I listened to Sam talked about how to be happy and it was an amazing, amazing video. (Yes I am aware using ‘amazing’ twice to describe is a grammatical error.) But yeaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh *exhales* his words were what I needed to hear on a shitty day like this and I think he is super inspiring. I like how he never expected pity, and instead expected more than that. He expected happiness. I like how he doesn’t need to be brave because he (I know I would) could cry and hate on the world and wake up everyday thinking “Why Me?”, but he doesn’t. He goes on being brave, being him and doing things he love doing. Halfway through the video, I no longer pity him. In fact I starting admiring him, his courage, his ability to find joy even in the darkness. He turned the darkness into light, sadness into happiness and that’s what we should be doing.

Bravery. I feel the need to quote Tobias Eaton on this:

“There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.

But sometimes it doesn’t.

Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life.

That is the sort of bravery I must have now.”

Pretty cool quote, huh? Thanks Tobias! 🙂

Initially I thought it was upsetting that Sam passed on earlier this year. He wanted to change the world and he could have if he had longer. Then a sudden realisation hit me- HE ALREADY HAD! Sorry for the caps, I ain’t shouting. But he already had! See, he already changed my mindset tonight and I am part of the world so technically, Sam you did change the world 🙂 Thanks Sam!

Anyway, I wasn’t feeling very well either and my awesome mother instantly prepared porridge for me. Although it was seriously just a bowl of porridge with nothing else, it was delicious (I added some tortilla chips into it…haha). Things to be grateful for. And my mom also shared with me some problems her friend was facing and I listened…that was when I realised, Hey today was a pretty great shitty day. I could have had some crazy unsolvable problem or maybe lost my life but I didn’t.

So here I am typing away, finally realising that some shitty days can be positive too. POSITIVE SHITTY DAYS FTW! Onward to another positive day tomorrow!

It’ll be great if we can leave out the shittiness, though 😛

So I…

Finished reading The Fault In Our Stars, which is like the “it” book these days. I finally understand what all the fuss is about. I think. It was beautifully written with this ending that I had expected. (No spoilers)

Definitely looking forward to film adaption, although Augustus was pictured very differently (from Ansel, the actor who does not have the blue eyes Augustus supposedly had.) in my head. Then again, I always pictured book characters very differently in my head.Still, I’m anticipating the movie to watch how Caleb the bro become Augustus the lover (Divergent, ahahaha). 

I am feeling super hungry now. That’s what reading does to me sometimes. I picked up a book telling myself, “Just a few chapters.” and suddenly, I finished it. Unknowingly, dinnertime passed and I think I might have heard my mom calling me to eat but she knows I can’t hear anything else when I’m reading… 

You know I started this post because I had lots of things to say after reading the book. But suddenly, I am just really, really starving and when I am hungry, I can’t think. So screw it, will edit this post some other time when I satisfy my stomach’s callings. 

*vanishes into smoke* 

I am Dauntless

I am Dauntless

Check this out! Amazing ziplines around the world, I am getting a slight adrenaline rush just by watching them. Reminded me of my ziplining experience in Nami Island, Korea. It was a short, yet long experience. Time to try out Singapore’s zipline soon! 

But nothing, nothing can beat the Dauntless’ zipline. #Divergent #whyamihashtagginginWordpress

May 7 is the 127th day of the year

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A view out of my window. Is it strange that I love gloomy views like this?

 

Have you ever got the feeling that today seems like a special day, but you just can’t remember why? May 7. It seems like a date that should be committed to my memory, yet I don’t know why. I don’t think it’s anybody (special) ‘s birthday either. One of those kiyodu mysteries that cannot be solved.

Woke up way past noon today. I was in a really bad dream, not a nightmare though. Nightmares are scary but this dream was just strange. There were ghosts in the toilet and people chasing me and all I ever wanted was a peaceful sleep. It was raining really heavily when I woke up, but the humidity is SURREAL. I am feeling suffocated while typing this…so gonna switch on the aircon later 😛

Just a simple, uneventful day today…Most of the days in my holidays are actually like that unfortunately/fortunately. I should really get started on my to-do list soon.

But after a few YouTube videos, I think.

Yeah, just a few.

 

Bursting my bubble

How did your Tuesday went? Hope it was enjoyable, for the weekends are still really far away.

Mine was really good, I had a lot of good laughs today! Tuesday mornings are spent at Save Our StreetDogs (SOSD) and I always look forward to it.

Ah, rather disappointed because it’s been 2 weeks since I last got to handle Mouldy. Ah…my boy… However, my heart is still big enough and I love all the dogs I’m currently handling, so much! And the ones that I didn’t handle before too, of course eg. Dearest Ashley. Nevertheless, I dropped by Mouldy/Jasmine’s enclosure and GUESS WHAT? That boy literally hopped up on his hind legs and was so excited upon seeing me!

And guess what? I had to walk away from him eventually to get Pika. Aww man, sorry dude! 😦 Also, Jasmine kept growling at Mouldy whenever I called him, it was frightening. I swear Jasmine looked really pissed. I didn’t tell anyone because they’d probably say it doesn’t matter. Mouldy, c’mon you’re the man! Fast forward: I visited Mouldy again after their meals, and he ignored me. Sad life of kiyodu.

Pack walk lunch was funny as usual, we had a great time playing Charades, SG STYLE! Lost track of how much time we were just sitting there, laughing.

It’s really nice, sometimes. To be able to really sit and enjoy, watching the day unfold itself with laughter. I always feel good after a long laughing session 🙂 who doesn’t, right? Busy people like us need to laugh more.

Tuesdays are really the day I make an effort to step out of my comfort zone, my bubble. Bonding with dogs and humans…ah, Tuesdays.

Let’s hope tomorrow will just be as great as today! And let’s pray that Mr Mouldy gets better soon!

Life needs no explanation

Usually my first post on a new blog would be stating the reasons why I chose to create a new blog.

But this time, I think no explanation is needed. I just felt like creating a site filled with memories that are happy and positive. Bad stuff are reserved for my private diaries and stored away in a dark, dark abyss 😉

I’m a very lazy person by the way. Got a feeling this blog will not sustain for long either, but hey, it’s worth a try! Btw I took less than 5 seconds to choose an URL, but almost an hour to pick a skin. Not because I was being fussy, but because my laptop is training my patience. She loves to freeze at every. Single. Thing.

And I just dropped my phone on my neck…